what is this day off of which you speak?

I had planned to sleep today, considering I did not sleep last night, and my liver really needs some rest after four nights/days of abuse. But then my brother needed to go to the dentist and didn't know how to get there himself, and then Susan called and said she was sick and needed me to come in and close.

So I just got home.

I still need to register for next semester, but I'm kind of putting it off in the hope that everyone will forget I'm supposed to be going.

time and need and truth

Once something happens, the instant it happens, it's done and gone and no longer exists. Then you can change the memory of it to suit your truth for the moment. Nothing exists but this very instant. This one. Now it's gone, and a new instant has taken its place. Nothing exists but right now.

but

it swings back down and there is nothing anyone can do and then things are like an ocean lapping on the shore and then the tide brings it back. nothing. things that shouldnt take a moment take forever in this place and everything is ssslllllooooooowwwwwww and dark. where can things possibly lead but nowhere. nowhere. nowhere is not a place but it is a state of mind and when youre nowhere there is nothing you can do to get out. nothing is even more. nothing is nothingness and nowhere is nothingness and it all gels together into dark.

nobody and nothing and nowhere and this is all things are forever.

getting out is impossible.