apology

I've been horrifically bitchy these past few days, and for that I apologize.

Pithy comments that are meant to be funny just sound dead and forced now. And bitchy. Did I mention bitchy?

I just can't put life behind my words anymore. I don't have any life left in my body. Even sitting here writing this costs me more energy than I posess. I know I need to look for another job, but the thought of moving more than I have to pains me.

I'm feeling utterly selfish. Look at me. LOOK AT ME.

I am not who I am anymore. I'm standing behind a fogged up pane of glass, and I can't break through.

I want to go home.

ignore that last post

I take it back. Don't look at me.

I just got out of the hospital. Because I have been incredibly sick for the entire past week, I ended up dangerously dehydrated and nearly passed out at work this morning. Made an appointment with the doctor, who told me to immediately get my ass to the hospital. So tons of IV fluids later, I'm back home, feeling incredibly embarrassed about my last post, which I don't even remember writing.

Yikes.